Bipolar Diary

Let me start off with that many people that read this blog are those who have to deal with or professionally treat bipolars. My endings to my blogging is a plea for you to share, I know even those who are close to or may even love, God Bless You – Those who love a bipolar! there is many who know as well as I how difficult the bipolar is so! you need to share here on this very blog your feelings or experiences by either being a bipolar or the bipolar experience. Share, you will feel good in doing so.

BTW, If you are are shrink in the greater metropolitan area of Denver CO I desperately need you!

Well what do you know here it is 2 days in a row, can’t tell yo when the last time that happened. I swear that I am not feeling well enough to be doing this let alone 2 days in a row. Does a bipolar really use crutches. I mean aren’t they strong enough to stand alone? In answer to that when you have a host of raving demons in your head constantly how would you be able to function?

I had a thought that I was going to throw down here but it has left me for the moment and I dare say probably forever. At the present time I am without shrink. I have been without shrink since March of 2003. Have I been doing alright? Now what would you say seeing me stand around here asking questions and then answering them. NO! I am not OK and I have not been frigging OK since 2003. I did have a brief stint with I believe 2 shrinks and a GP who thought he was a shrink and could manage my medicine but almost poisoned me cept for the fact that I could read a lab report seeing that 2500 of Depakote was way over a therapeutic level and I weaned my self of my med and NO! I ain’t ok!

3 Years ago I quit a job that I had been on for 28 years (bipolars don’t like change) but I was delusional and felt I was being unmercifully being persecuted ( I wasn’t I now know)

I now have a host of screaming demons with me constantly on my current job and if it keeps up I am going to go stark raving mad. It hurts alot and I don’t know what to do. DO you?

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I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

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Now I call tell ya that I am leaving the slump and am headed up hill. The pain has eased and the demons are asleep. I feel as I can see and that both eyes are open. This simple statement may seem a bit impractical but if this is you and you have been there you can realize just what I am saying. Good day at work, no real stumbling there a bit hard to motivate but was able to focus and be productive.

This is at the WAAAM museum in Hood River Oregon taken 2010-05-14

At the same time I am home trying to do some web cams and I am able to get a simple cam up and running, web site with simple programming, but then I have this IP cam that is giving me nothing but trouble and I can not finger it out. As with times like these the periods when I can do complex technical shit are few and far between but understanding as I may I still attempt it thus frustrating myself unmercifully. I may realize this is happening or three days later when I experience a moment of lucidness I realize I have spent 3 days doing nothing but spinning my wheels.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

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It is all good. I almost feel normal. Things have been normal at least the way I define it but really put much to that.

Went to Timberline Ski Area just outside Portland Oregon an did a few pictures of Mt Hood (see Below) and I would say looking good.

You know I really could get used to feeling like this I can’t say when the last time I felt this good and can’t really say if I have. Too Kool!

Unbelievable, not only am I on the top side of my cycle it is great! it is sustained and I sure hope I don’t plunge and friggin crash and burn . . . been there done that but I certainly will enjoy it while it lasts.

I am not sure if is the release from the medication or if it is just going good. As usual I say you all out there do know what I mean.

Better yet I am popping out some killer articles for an example here is on from ezineArticles.com go there and check it out if you like. I am not having trouble concentrating and I can carryout a thought so I would say I am doing pretty good.

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