Bipolar Diary

Talk about pain and the intolerable bipolar creates an almost new pain in itself. So how about what’s good about being bipolar. I can tell you fly on the wall when this was read around the world. There is nothing good about being bipolar nor good about being a bipolar. A bipolar that is not medicated can say that their creativity is the sharpest when they are “awake”. I may not have introduced the term awake before so allow me a moment to explain it.

In San Fransisco on Peggy’s Birthday 2005 taken by Peggy

More than likely this is going to take a huge tangent away from what I was beginning there but anyhow, when a bipolar is medicated and well into their therapeutic range of medication they are literally zombies. The walking asleep bipolars. The level of medication to even out the mood cycles puts the bipolar in a zombie state, the walking dead, asleep on their feet. In this state the bipolar is manageable, they’re asleep, so of course they’re manageable.

Off the tangent and moving forward, the same manic that is not medicated will say that they pose no threat to themselves or anyone else. If you are the one hearing that I can only say as being a manic that is pure bullshit! We are dangerous to ourselves and to those around us. It is so like a drunken driver where the question is will any thing happen by driving drunk, but of course we know that answer and it is not if but when . . . . Same with a manic that is not medicated, when?

That has wore me out so I bide you farewell till I am able to write more for you again.

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

Let me start off with that many people that read this blog are those who have to deal with or professionally treat bipolars. My endings to my blogging is a plea for you to share, I know even those who are close to or may even love, God Bless You – Those who love a bipolar! there is many who know as well as I how difficult the bipolar is so! you need to share here on this very blog your feelings or experiences by either being a bipolar or the bipolar experience. Share, you will feel good in doing so.

BTW, If you are are shrink in the greater metropolitan area of Denver CO I desperately need you!

Well what do you know here it is 2 days in a row, can’t tell yo when the last time that happened. I swear that I am not feeling well enough to be doing this let alone 2 days in a row. Does a bipolar really use crutches. I mean aren’t they strong enough to stand alone? In answer to that when you have a host of raving demons in your head constantly how would you be able to function?

I had a thought that I was going to throw down here but it has left me for the moment and I dare say probably forever. At the present time I am without shrink. I have been without shrink since March of 2003. Have I been doing alright? Now what would you say seeing me stand around here asking questions and then answering them. NO! I am not OK and I have not been frigging OK since 2003. I did have a brief stint with I believe 2 shrinks and a GP who thought he was a shrink and could manage my medicine but almost poisoned me cept for the fact that I could read a lab report seeing that 2500 of Depakote was way over a therapeutic level and I weaned my self of my med and NO! I ain’t ok!

3 Years ago I quit a job that I had been on for 28 years (bipolars don’t like change) but I was delusional and felt I was being unmercifully being persecuted ( I wasn’t I now know)

I now have a host of screaming demons with me constantly on my current job and if it keeps up I am going to go stark raving mad. It hurts alot and I don’t know what to do. DO you?

A gift for my patient readers and followers

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The videos and pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.