2011-12-19 Monday
I am regularly taking 2000mg of depakote daily unless I forget which does happen on occasion. I feel lucid and believe it may be a good Xmas due to the way I am feeling which is it feels that it is on the up swing, but how long that really lasts is up to going back and looking to see.
I am excited that Christmas is soon. I understand the pertinence of what it means in the terms of the celebration of the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ. When I am able to express them I do have feelings of a religious nature which may be argumentative because it is a type of self medicating.
I certainly do understand the self medicating aspect of the sickness such as alcohol, licit drugs and religion. I can accept all of the above.
In a moment of where the demons are not an issue I am then able to write and function doing things and maybe even completing them. I have been moving things at home from 1 room to another which I guess is may way of keepeing busy.