Bipolar Diary

It must be tiring ready that every time I get around to it that I am feeling bad. I am. Odd thing I was soaking in the hot tub head underwater breath held eyes closed, hard. Then it happened I had a flash back to when I was twelve and running around capital hill. It was as if it was yesterday. When I reflect on this I realize that I have these flash backs as if it was yesterday, clear as day, I can feel the emotion and the pain. Pain because I was not living at home, I was 12 years old and a runaway. Thing was a usual occurrence living at home under the situation as I was. The situation, my parents not know that I was bipolar, I didn’t know I was bipolar. The just knew I was a really bad kid but not why. Back then, in the 60′s I am not sure kids were allowed to be mentally ill or even recognized that the possibility could exist, I was just a bad boy or possessed with the devil now there I can relate even to this day.

San Francisco from across the bay taken April 3 2010

Today, I am still feeling bad and it has been awhile since I felt a # 1 OK. This shit is killing me because I have set a number of gals to accomplish and this is putting a serious frigging dent I my ability to get it done. My famous call to action but so simple I can hardly say I coined the phrase.

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

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Wish I could tell you all is great. Well one thing I found my lost lost daughter and I can tell you my life is gold compared to what that dear child had to go through growing up. She is now a grown woman with a child of her own and seems to be well adjusted. Now I also have a son of which I have not heard from in 30 years and my daughter says she thinks he dead, a drug deal gone wrong in California. Before I really didn’t like California and now . . . . . Still on the down spiral and it is killing me. I have the over whelming urge to self medicate and very well may just bought a liter of liquor to help celebrate Memorial day. What a blast – NOT! We here where I live in this swelter community we had a hail strom straight from which tore everything to pieces, luckily my wife and I were both at work in parts of town that were virtually unscathed by the storm. hey there was something good!

This picture was taken of Christine Falls on Mt Rainier 2010-05-14

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

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Happy Birthday to Me!

I seem to be funking but it is not no sharp drop and it is mostly numb. Good sign. My mind is really foggy and terribly hard to formulate thoughts. It seems as I watch the whole computer display is moving in slow motion. Pretty crazy seeing it play out and so will shut it down now.

This picture was taken 2010-05-14 at the WAAAM in Hood River Oregon.

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that among other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totally FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

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Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

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Can barley think and writing is painful because I have to try and think.

I once may have said that there is no pain with bipolar . . . WRONG

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

I really want to write, to write everyday to let you know that I am OK, but the fact is I am not OK and the demons are being somewhat bothersome. But then again being bipolar is really bothersome, and my birthday is next week with me celebrating it in the usual fashion. I guess though I am not sure what usual fashion is. I can not connect with my own mind, my vision is blurry and I just cant think or remember from one moment to the other. We know when this all began so it is to see how long it will last and what I do during.

This picture is Mt St Helen In Washington taken 2010-05-14

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that among other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totally FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

Make a note for I can tell it is all going down hill but at this moment I can’t tell how fast. Lost concentration, it is like pulling teeth just to do this little bit.

Taken 2010-05-14 at Airplane and Auto Museum in Hood River Oregon.

I can say though that it was good while it lasted and I wonder when I will see something like that again. As you recall I could not remember if I had ever, but I will remember because it is here. That really is a shame you know but it is also life, the life of a bipolar.

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that among other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE PLEASE! leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you
would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know at bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

I think maybe being on vacation has been the best medicine I have ever taken for I am feeling no pain, I am enjoying alot and if I knew otherwise I would think I was cured or more likely never a bipolar in the first place. So maybe there is hope, of what I could not really tell you. Some would ask were you possibly just a mild bipolar and not completely afflicted? I can teel you one thing for sure is that I do enjoy writing, blogging and such that from September 2009 until early 2010 I was so paralyzed with my affliction that I was unable to write, internet market or much else. It was a struggle to maintain at work and be somewhat productive in paying my way at work and had I been in another professional position I would not have had a job. So just short of a miracle I would probably say I am still bipolar, but really really feeling GOOD!

This picture was taken in Hood River Oregon at the Columbia River Canal Locks on 2010-05-13.

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE PLEASE! leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

DO YOU LIKE THE PICTURES? DO YOU WANT MORE? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com

It can be really unpredictable most of the time. At the moment as well as the past few days I have been feeling extraordinarily good for which no reason comes to mind but I guess that is why I would need a shrink to tell me why or if it is truly a fact that I am feeling good. Of course due to that fact it is why I don’t have a shrink even though in pact blogging I have mentioned how I thought I really need one; musta been outa my mind.

I am still vacationing, having a grand time, loving the wife and the time we are spending together (don’t know if she reads this) but it is true. My focus on the task at hand seems to be workable for I have taken many photographs and they have been outstanding! Nothing that will make me rich but none the less they have turned out exceptionally well.

I haven’t really said much about the time we spent with our friends here in Central Oregon but we got to their place early afternoon sitting around catching up what has happened since we saw each on a cruise on Lake Washington in August of 2009. They had set up dinner out at a small musical performance which turned out to be some of the weirdest shit I have ever heard in my frigging life and it was just not t he amount of wine I had consumed, the music was just plain WEIRD! Food OK for a buffet.

When we got home we (wife and I) got an additional musical performance from our friends with him singing and playing the acoustic guitar and his wife accompanying him vocally. Totally outstanding performance by them just could not get enough!

Life is good, I am feeling good and at the moment I am vacationing in the great Northwest, staying in Welch Oregon at the Wispering Woods Resort which is a Shell Vacations property of which I have a timeshare in.

All too often I am a sucker for a sales pitch no common scense at that moment wrong part of my manic cycle and shazam! I own a timeshare and it not only happened there (In SanFransico where I bought it) and not only that but 6 years ago I visited Mexico and fell for a simple ploy in attending a time share sales presentation so I also own a Mexican time share.

Oh how great it is to be bipolar but beware there are points in your cycle where you should just be protected from your self or is every great shopper and buyers bipolar?

Unbelievable, not only am I on the top side of my cycle it is great! it is sustained and I sure hope I don’t plunge and friggin crash and burn . . . been there done that but I certainly will enjoy it while it lasts.

I am not sure if is the release from the medication or if it is just going good. As usual I say you all out there do know what I mean.

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