Bipolar Diary

My mind tells me that yesterday was the first day of the year and I then go outside and it is 90 degrees out and just beautiful flowers in bloom everywhere trees swaying in the breeze but even so I just can not imagine where in the hell the year has gone.

There is NO! Better Dog . . . .

Today I am feeling old, I mean really old! and I just turned 54 but damn I know I said it before but I feel OLD! It is that 1st of the year thing, I don’t know where the year has gone I don’t know where my life has gone? I just don’t feel significant what is there to show for my life, my son is dead because I let him visit his mother for a week so I could get remarried and this was after she disappeared in the middle of the night.

For 3 years I raised my son and daughter alone and then out of the blue my ex-wife shows up asking if she could visit them and my GOD! where did all of this come from.

Sometimes times I frighten my self, this came pouring out and my heart started twisting as if it was going to break in half. I am sooooooo SORRY!

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

There are a number of things on my mind but how do you really go about putting these types of thoughts down on a public viewable journal, epically since they are about where I work. I have never been in a institution where the mentally challenged were housed but where I work the environment there feels as I imagine a lock down in a severely challenged section would be like.

A picture taken along the shore of Carter Lake outside of Loveland Colorado by Peggy Summer 2006

I am feeling some better these days and as we all know is how long is it going to last. I feel like it is above the mid point and rising so that is good news. The past few days I have been doing some web cams and I finally got one on the internet though there is some work still required.

When I have them demons somewhat off my ass I am able to do more, more freely. I almost feel normal and creative. Actually it is times like this that I am in the creativity swing of things it is just that they don’t last long.

I may not have mentioned it but I really enjoy photography and can actually say
that I do pretty well by it. Sooner or later I will try to get a gallery of photos that I take up and can say that amoung other things I am a pretty good writer also. I have written a number of ebooks, mostly on internet subjects and how-to for craigslist, twitter, google adsense and other popular marketing subjects. For my faithful readers I will make available totaly FREE to you, any and all if you desire just send me an email to ebooks@bipolarydiary.com tell what you would like or what type of ebooks you like or just ask for the whole list of what I have available. Yours FREE as I said for being one of my faithful readers and if you like I will do the same for all your family and friends. Not cost, no gimmick.

I will end on that note – keep reading, learn, live happy and share.

YES! Share. A note about that.

PLEASE, PLEASE! Leave a comment below telling me of yourself, about your affliction and how it affects you. You can state you comment is PRIVATE to me or you would like to share it with all of my readers. Leave some sort of note telling me what you like about my writing, what you don’t like. Is there something you would like to see me write about, am I lucid enough to be understandable. Are you feeling my pain and my joy? Tell me, please if you would. Share your thoughts and message with me.

Do You Like The Pictures? Do You Want More? email me and let me know bipolarguy@bipolardiary.com or write it in my comments.

Forever, one of lifes constants. I had always defined forever as being finite but realized that it can be just a moment in time that comes and goes quickly.